Ascension Sickness: When Spiritual Growth Hurts More Than It Heals

No one talks about this part.

They talk about the glow-up, the chakras aligning, the peace, the “I found myself” part.

The followers. The crystals. The downloads…But they don’t talk about what happens when the healing starts to eat you alive.

They don’t talk about when your body becomes a battleground, your mind a maze, your spirit—unrecognizable.

This is for the ones who’ve had to scream into pillows… for the ones who shook on their bathroom floor at 3AM, feeling like something inside them was dying— because it was.

You Asked for Growth. Did You Think the Old You Would Leave Quietly?

Let me be blunt:

Spiritual growth isn’t aesthetic. It’s destruction disguised as destiny. It’s your ego being eviscerated. Your identity cracking open like bone.

It’s the moment you realize:

This healing sh*t will cost you everything you were never meant to keep.

And that’s the part no one prepares you for.

Ascension Sickness is Real… and It Feels Like Hell.

Let’s talk about the symptoms no one lists:

Your skin breaks out in places you’ve never seen before, you develop food intolerances overnight, people vanish, lovers ghost, friends get triggered by your light, you can’t sleep—but you also can’t wake up fully. You’re fatigued, dissociated, dizzy—like you’re grieving a version of yourself but can’t explain why.

You cry without knowing what for.

You stop recognizing your own face in the mirror. Sound familiar?

 It’s because your soul is detoxing… Your nervous system is trying to catch up to the spirit work you’ve done… and your body—bless her—is begging you to slow down.

I Thought I Was Dying. Spirit Said I Was Finally Being Reborn.

I’ll never forget what my “awakening” looked like.

It was 2010 when it all first started.

My health collapsed—literally. Eczema erupted across my skin like fire.

My hair fell out in clumps. My entire immune system shut down.

I was allergic to everything—including the life I had built… and while that was happening, I was waking up.

To astrology. To energy. To truths no church had dared to teach me. It was like being electrocuted by truth while drowning in grief.

People thought I was glowing, but behind closed doors… I was rotting from the inside out.

Ascension Isn’t Always Enlightenment. Sometimes It’s Exile.

Nobody tells you that spiritual growth will make you lonely.

That the more you learn, the less you relate… That your family will call you arrogant.

That people will project darkness onto your light. They don’t tell you that “alignment” might mean being broke for a while, that you might have to leave relationships that once felt like home, that your body might rebel, purging stored trauma through rashes, weight gain, cysts, or sudden pain.

And still—somehow—you’ll keep going… Not because you want to.

But because once you’ve seen Truth, you can’t unsee it.

Chiron in Leo. Mercury and Venus in Scorpio. I Was Born for the Underworld.

I know now that my wounds were written in the stars. That my pain was preordained.

That I wasn’t cursed—I was chosen.

Chiron in Leo: a heart that breaks in private but shines in public.

Mercury in Scorpio: a mind that sees too much, feels too deeply, speaks only when it’ll change you.

Venus in Scorpio: love that becomes an altar—until betrayal burns it down.

I was never built for a surface-level awakening… and if you’re still reading this, maybe you weren’t either.

This Path Ain’t for the Weak. And That’s Exactly Why You’re Here.

Ascension sickness isn’t a flaw, it’s a rite of passage.

It means your body is purging what your soul has already outgrown. It means the mask is melting. It means you’re not spiritually bypassing anymore.

You’re feeling it. You’re facing it. You’re forging yourself through the flames.

So if your life feels like it’s falling apart—good! That means it’s finally falling into alignment.

💌 You Don’t Have to Heal Alone.

I see you. I am you… and that’s why I offer soul readings—not to tell your future, but to help you reclaim your present.

Let’s decode your chart.

Let’s unearth your purpose.

Let’s make sense of the pain.

Book a reading here

Take your power back.

Because this path may be brutal— but you were built for rebirth.