The One Who Made Me Feel Free: A Love Letter to a Past Life Connection

A reflection on soul recognition, emotional safety and the grief of letting go something soft.

Some people come into your life like hurricanes—loud, destructive, impossible to ignore.

Others arrive like a sunrise.

Soft. Unexpected. Slowly illuminating parts of you that hadn’t seen light in years.

Adam was the latter.

Before I knew what soulmates were… I met one.

🌬 A Different Kind of Love

It was after trauma. After I had been reduced, broken open, and stitched myself back together just enough to start showing up in the world again.

And then there he was.

Blue-eyed, chaotic, disarmingly honest.

He didn’t come in with grand gestures. He didn’t promise forever.

But for the first time in a long time, I didn’t feel afraid to be seen.

With Adam, I felt like a bird who had just learned how to fly again.

There were no cages. No performative walls.

Just breath.

Just laughter.

Just freedom.

He made me feel like I could say anything, and he’d find a way to understand it—even if he didn’t fully relate. I didn’t need to explain my silences or hide my softness. He never made me feel like too much.

🪞 The Spiritual Bond (Before I Had the Language)

I wasn’t “spiritual” yet—not in the way I am now. I didn’t talk about past lives or soul contracts or karmic loops.

But I felt it.

There was a pull between us that couldn’t be explained logically. It wasn’t obsession. It wasn’t lust. It was this deep, familiar thread that whispered,

“You’ve known him before.”

We’d sit in silence, and I’d feel like I had known him in other lifetimes.

Maybe we were friends. Maybe we were lovers.

Maybe we were two souls who had once promised to find each other again in the next round.

And for a while—we did.

🌿 The Soft Ache of Misalignment

The thing about past life connections is that they don’t always come back to stay… sometimes they come back to awaken you.

Adam taught me how to feel light again. To laugh again.

To trust someone who didn’t want to control or consume me.

But we were not in the same place.

He was still wrestling with demons—addictions, distractions, his own journey toward responsibility… and I was still learning that love wasn’t supposed to be about fixing someone.

I didn’t leave because he was unkind.

I left because staying meant I would have to shrink, wait, and hope - and that version of me—the one who begged for emotional crumbs—was already dying.

💔 Grieving the Soft Kind of Love

This was not the kind of heartbreak that comes with betrayal.

It was the subtle kind. The “we still care about each other but we’re not aligned” kind.

The kind of grief that doesn’t scream—it lingers.

It hums in the background for years.

I missed his presence.

His voice.

His laugh.

Even now, sometimes I hear a song or see someone who looks vaguely like him, and my heart stirs—not with regret, but with reverence.

Because not every love is meant to be a forever home.

Some are just the safe stop along the way.

🕊 What That Connection Taught Me

Adam taught me that I didn’t need to be perfect to be loved.

That I didn’t need to lead with my body or my performance.

That I could be playful, silly, flawed—and still worthy.

He also taught me that freedom in love is not about detachment. It’s about choosing someone and still feeling like yourself.

And maybe that’s what soulmates are:

Not the ones we end up with, but the ones who remind us of who we are when we’re not pretending.

💌 A Note to the Reader

If you’ve ever let go of someone who felt like home—this post is for you.

If you’re still grieving someone who didn’t hurt you but couldn’t grow with you—this post is for you.

If you’re holding the soft ache of a love that was gentle but misaligned—I see you.

You’re not crazy for missing it.

You’re not weak for remembering it.

And you’re not alone in wondering what it could have been.

Some loves are not meant to last.

They’re meant to awaken.

To soften you.

To show you what it feels like to be held without pressure.

And when they leave, you’re not left empty.

You’re left wider.

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